In need of serious help:
About 3.5 months ago I had a pretty bad experience with the drug MDMA. I was rolling so hard that I had pushed myself to try and vomit (which didn’t work out as I had nothing in my stomach) and was even close to heading to the med tent. I eventually paced for about an hour and came out of it but it was…traumatizing. I made a huge mistake and I am aware of that but what I need help with is moving past this.
Every time I think about the drug, the bottom of my spine tingles, I feel sick, and I feel panicked like I’m not going to be able to escape the feeling. I am still trying to train my brain how to listen to the music I was listening to when it happened.
I need some honest, genuine, kind advice because, do understand that I am ashamed of myself for taking well over the amount I should have and knowingly doing so. If anyone has any advice on how to recuperate from an experience like this or something, please personally message me, I would greatly appreciate it.